Clock ticking

Sorrow sank deep inside
I just can't see myself that way
I dont know how long I can take this
Just one day, maybe, one day
I do wonder when will it be
I can just imagine how awful it will be
Wouldn't be good, that's for sure
Oh well, if it's meant to be, it will be.

"A man wants to be a woman's first love, a woman wants to be his last."
I find this surprisingly true
but then again, you can always twist words.

shit hitting the fan

I dont know what you are doing
and what you are thinking
If it's meant to be, so be it
I cant be bothered no more
I am not stupid
I am observant

what started out as a joke
turned me really cold
once I saw it happening
It really awaken me the whole time
that feeling is terrible

Hard and cold
The focus was gone
I am so tired of this nonsense

Just when I'm starting to trust you again
you fuck me up nicely
AGAIN

FUCK YOU!

It just triggered me somehow
I felt the pain
The feelings came rushing back
and I was reminded
how fucked up it was

What am I thinking...
Now I really don't know.

Architortureeee

Beeen doing work like crazy maann
for weeks non stop
I feel like I have no life =_=

x)

Another new beginning
The start of a new story