I don't care

Suddenly it just didnt matter anymore
if it's going to work
It's weird, feeling this way
when all the while I've never thought that I will
I've always thought myself to be someone else
Doesnt seem like it anymore

It kept rubbing into my head
The possible scenes
The fact that it is superior
It's killing me
knowing that fact

Echoes are reaching my ears
night's coming fast, sun's going down
confused
I don't know the answers
I wonder how long will it take for me to not care
before I start giving up

I wish I could be the one
the one who won't care at all

Clock ticking

Sorrow sank deep inside
I just can't see myself that way
I dont know how long I can take this
Just one day, maybe, one day
I do wonder when will it be
I can just imagine how awful it will be
Wouldn't be good, that's for sure
Oh well, if it's meant to be, it will be.

"A man wants to be a woman's first love, a woman wants to be his last."
I find this surprisingly true
but then again, you can always twist words.

shit hitting the fan

I dont know what you are doing
and what you are thinking
If it's meant to be, so be it
I cant be bothered no more
I am not stupid
I am observant

what started out as a joke
turned me really cold
once I saw it happening
It really awaken me the whole time
that feeling is terrible

Hard and cold
The focus was gone
I am so tired of this nonsense

Just when I'm starting to trust you again
you fuck me up nicely
AGAIN

FUCK YOU!

It just triggered me somehow
I felt the pain
The feelings came rushing back
and I was reminded
how fucked up it was

What am I thinking...
Now I really don't know.

Architortureeee

Beeen doing work like crazy maann
for weeks non stop
I feel like I have no life =_=

x)

Another new beginning
The start of a new story

Losing my senses
Dont know why I'm feeling this way at all
Happening more and more often
This is frustrating.

And I realised I'm going for the other alternative
not the usual one
This is so bad...

I saw my world crumbled
before my eyes
I know
Dark will turn to light
and in time I'll be all right
Thanks for being there

It's time to decide
Or just go with the flow

I really don't know
I hope I don't mess this one up

Checkmate

Cant really see how it would end up

Already affecting me
A wrong move
It feels all right till we pay the price

New Moon? :p
okay, I'm being lame here -_-

dont know what I'm being emo about
doubtful
not right

and I didnt follow! WTF
what was I thinking zzz
seriously masuk perangkap d

Is this the right direction?
Hopefully this isn't a mistake
I used to think it was impossbile

Macau, China.

I realised I'm not updating my blog like the way I used to.
Losing its purpose

On the other hand, got to control!
cannot get addicted man!
scary shit!

I cant believe I'm so troubled by this.... very bad bad feeling about this

Love is in the air :)

Sometimes I do wish I had a religion

Things are starting to get interesting.
This is gonna be a year to remember.

It feels different now

SEI SEI!

A daily routine
Simple

People in the city are complicated!
Everybody is fucked up.

Oh I miss the holiday with my buddies
It was just beyond awesomeness!

Definitely differs a lot than the parasites here.

I miss those hot chicks :P
The colours and lights in the city were amazing.

I love places with water elements
It makes me feel calm

It is April.
The time to be awesome is nao.