Faint

When can I stop looking into that dimming light
and just give up?!

I don't want it to end..
The fact is there
What am I holding on to?!

For FUCK SAKE!!

It just hits me

I suddenly just realised how much I need to go home
I dont have anything here
Why should I even think about staying here longer?!

Not even to hang out!
I dont blame them
I mean, we are who we are
I guess it's just not meant to be
I'm really just sick of always planning things

I thought it's different
now I cant be fucked anymore
Everything is going wrong here
I should just leave this place to be as dead as it should be

Oh I bitch and whine a lot!
Damn it, I cant wait to go home
and leave this forsaken place!

Hobarto Trip

Yes, it's time for a proper post!
We went Hobart like weeks ago
just to grab some nice food :D

Special mention to Syh How
The damn cheap bugger who flied us Air Asia
>.>

Our first stop was Ross,
known for her famous scallop pies~

See Jasper so happy :D

Had our first great meal in Hobart :D
Hogsbreath :D
ooo yeah meat tower LOL!

had the usual ice cream as well
guoyi was in heaven ;D

hang out at the docks
picture taking :D

Had tea in Mures
I had like 6 fresh oysters myself -_-|
thanks to izzy :p

For dinner,
we headed to some wood fire pizza :D
we hang out along the beach
before heading for dinner

Our Salmon pizza!
It was great ;)
and oh, this is su jan :p

Yeah I know,
you might be wondering
why not the usual group
Well, people change
it's time to make new friends :)

Coming up soon~

Tulip farm. Wynyard, Tasmania.

Hope..

What is there to hope for?
Will there be hope?

I'm not the man I used to be
There's a shadow hanging over me
Always heading into the mouth of the unknown
Just for the sake of feeling
that I have nothing to lose
I did shits that I never thought I would ever do

Deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm always attached to you
I lost a friend
The bond that I felt
was indescribable
I can still remember how it felt

I don't regret those days
You were the best thing that happened to me
I only regretted for not giving better
There will be no one like you

"When I'm sad, I'll stop being sad and start being awesome instead!"
Damn it, I wish I could do that!

Fuck, what am I saying?!
I'm being a retard again!
God, I need a fucking drink!

It feels so weird

to be flirted
after so long
I actually felt REALLY weird for a moment
It's beeen soooo long
that a girl actually flirted HARD with me
and I just KNOW her ! =.=
I think it's best I not elaborate about it
censored :p

After chatting with her
it's funny how her mind thinks
almost the same way as I am thinking now
I guess it's the after effect of a committed one
When she talked about it
it just reminded me of how am I at the moment

Am I going to be like her ?
Though I kind of like her ideas...
hmmm..

Oh oh oh!!

OH I SO LOVE THIS PICTURE :D
Credits to Hong for this picture!

*happy mood dies*

I feeel so fucked up
shouldnt had read
sigh
I was such a bad person
My mum was so right....

I have to change.

Prosperity drinks anyone?

Prosperity kid. Georgetown, Penang. February 2009.


I'm not gonna say much
but your actions are beyond the line
Can you stop being such a fucked up person!?
It's not fucking yours!

I cant help but think..

Sunset. Penang, Malaysia. February 2009.


I really made a stupid mistake
My judgement is blinded
I hate this feeling
When can I get over this?

Lady Gaga concert in Melbourne !

crap lar
i cant decide wanna go or not :s
seems so funnnnnnnn

decide for me people? :p

Blue Devils audition!

This is like soooooooo awesome weii!!
So sad I'm not in USA :(

I should had went USA for my studies instead of Australia!!

Gosh, I miss my band days :(




on the side note
just a rant:

Oh the many lies you spoke, where is that importance of religion that you always talk about?
You always try so hard to be obedient and loyal to your religion
But in fact you are the devil himself
two faced whore fucktard
What whore you spoke about
when you are that whore himself
who kiss the feet of others for your own benefit
You are one sly, foul, filthy animal.

I can see it in your eyes
How you tried to brush away any charges against you
How you always sneak like a foul rat
and how you always do your espionage missions
You claim you changed?
Proven to be another one of your tricks
You will fall one day
You'll see

I'm back from

From the Tulip Festival
beautiful flowers
great weather
just plain awesome

this is just a short post
I'll update more when I have the time
Having my finals now

Too bad I cant get some
to bring back to Malaysia

Trip ended with a blast
Not bad of a firework display here in Tassie

The trip was great
minus the reminiscing part
Fireworks&beach doesn't work well.

Chinese New Year

CNY Celebration. Georgetown, Penang. February 2009.

"Trapped in the past,
I can't seem to move on"

Chinese Temple

Khoo Kongsi. Penang, Malaysia. February 2009.



I am so pissed off again
I thought you actually learn and change
but wtf you're still the same shit!
Stop leeching you fcking twat!
Go get your own shit!
IT IS NOT YOURS!

The sight of you disgust me!

Endless...

Lake. Bayan Lepas, Penang. February 2009.


There's only you in my life
The only thing that's bright.

Chinese food anyone?

Roasted Duck and Pork. Penang, Malaysia. February 2009.


cant wait to get home and EAT! :D

Well of Eternity

The well in my grandma's house. Kedah, Malaysia. February 2009.


sleepless night
bloody essay

Hate or happy?

Jamban anyone?

The isolated toilet. Kedah, Malaysia. February 2009.

This is the toilet that I had to travel across the road
in my kampung
when I was a young kid.

I remembered
When I was young
I hate going to the toilet
everytime I went back to my 'kampung'
Cause the toilet is located outside
especially when it's dark
with just one light bulb hanging above.

SCARY TILL CANNOT SHIT -_-"

Of course now my grandma's house
ada proper toilet d lar :D
so this toilet is no longer used.

Historical purpose heh.

Kampungku

Junjung. Kedah, Malaysia. February 2009.

I miss home
though part of me
dont feel like going back

I'm worried I'll become worse
sigh.

Slithering beast

Taiping Zoo. Perak, Malaysia. December 2008.

I feel so pathetic
Why bother whining and waiting
when I know there's no hope.
Now I know how he felt.
and how he became so desperate
Cant blame him for being a stalker
Hope I wouldn't be like him as well.

This feels like poison..

Emo old man?

Taiping Lake. Perak, Malaysia. December 2008.


Oh yeah, I ate crocodile meat :|
tough meat
and it's pale white.

Serenity

Taiping Lake. Perak, Malaysia. December 2008.



a little update about what I've been doing

Finally finished these two piece for Ceramic class lol!

Had a few games of pool today

And enjoyed some Belgian truffles ;)

Talk about swamp

Taiping Zoo. Perak, Malaysia. December 2008.

Just a clarification
what I'm doing now
is solely based on Jasper's idea ;)
as a point of reference
though literally I'm copying lol!

sorry hah jasper :p


update:
and the following sentences would be really harsh
sorry, just got to release my anger.

FOR FUCK SAKE
what the fuck is wrong with you huh!
You are full of lies
you talk like you're some what good guy
with all the good attitudes
and innocent fucked up acts
BULLSHIT!

It's not your fucking stuff
dont fucking act like it's yours!
always talk cock say got difficulties in shit that
saying that you are not that type of person
FUCK YOU
You are indeed that type of person
you and your fucked up so called good attitude

YES YOU ARE A SHIT PERSON
you used to think you are
indeed you are!
we despise you
nobody likes you!
GET THE FUCK OFF
GET YOUR OWN STUFF
and stop fucking leeching from us!


SAYS IT ALL

it's a BIG FUCK YOU!
YOU FUCKING RETARD!