Feeling Blue

Gunung Raya, Langkawi. January 2010.

I can't help feeling this way.

Counting down

Exactly a month more
before I return to Tassie
sad huh? :(
I'm so gonna miss all the late night outings
my friends
sien
I think this is the first time
that I actually felt so much reluctant to leave home as well
haha I guess it's because
there's no need for me to find
PEACE
at Tassie anymore :)

I took a lot of shots back home
Just so lazy to filter
actually not lazy
more like not free
been going out so much
and spending so much
my credit card is so broke now :'(

I am so gonna miss my baby sister :(
She is so so cute!
and so obedient :p
that's what I love most about her!
I realised I grew more attached to her this year
dunno why haha :)

Did I ever told you how beautiful Tassie is?
The landscapes are just...wow!
Just simply amazing!
That's about the only thing I am looking forward to!

But then again,
when can I ever see the light again?
I really don't know if I can get through this
sigh

Silver White

I can't decide.
Should I go? :|

Changes in life

It's funny how my life has changed so drastic throughout these years.
All because of the lack of control of my emotions.
I experienced a lot of things, things that I never thought I would do.
Things I swore myself never to experience.
I never thought I'll be who I am today.

It changed who I was.
You can say I became bolder.
Not bothered about the risk.
Nothing to lose.
At a point darkness became my best friend.

Looking back what I was last time.
I felt embarrassed and ashamed of who I was.
To have thought that it was a pride.
Shits happen in life.
I learn to accept that it is a part of my life journey.

A friend once told me:

Love is magical food and comfort for the weak.

All it brings is sadness, remorse, jealousy and hatred.

So why have love, when you can have companionship and just sex.

I'm sure many would disagree.
I guess you can say I have many discouraging friends.
Nevertheless it was an experience.
An experience of change.
Changes are just something necessary in our life.

Such scenes became normal to me.
I got used to this.
Dark songs became a normal frequency to my ears and mind.
I got used to this.
You can say it is already a part of my life.

Sadly, I have to admit I am still addicted to this drug.
Part of me just don't mind being that way.
Every bits of it are just so clear in me.
I am a happy person as long as I know all is well at the other end.
Every moment was just worthwhile.























When it burned,
I knew the wish I wished will never come true.
I had my chance.
I ruined it.
This is just how I got to deal with it.

It was just a few hours.
The smile on your face.
The happiness in your eyes.
My heart just felt light.
I finally felt at ease.

I am so glad I met you.
It was definitely one of the happiest moments in my life.
It will always be remembered.


And oh, did I told you I added another fucktard nemesis on the list today? :)
Another muthafooker on the list yay!

Need a pint?

I think I'm gonna face a couple of these soon.
Crap.
Oh well.

Take a break?

Damn it
I've been so busy
going out everyday
until it's like
I dont even remember who I promised to go out with :P
until they like call me asking
WHERE AM I?

lol
I think I'm getting old
that's why
Brain not functioning well enough :(
Well, at least with the busy time
it gets my head going

Okay, some picture time :D

I suka picture ni
macam gay though =-=

haha my juniors :)
they make me prouddd!

Oh and I finally met Lisan! :D
I'm still not going to put this as profile picture ==
No matter how much you insist :P
Apple picture FTW !
haha

Oh China China
How I miss China so much :(

I just don't get it
Is it so hard just to talk?

Just what I need

Shot glasses!

Just what I need :P

Thanks buddy lol!