Linkin Park World Tour

I've bought the tickets

and watching LP perform in December!

MUAHAHAH :D

The story of a bastard child

I personally know this bastard child

Knowing him really showed how the world is

He was the eye opener

of how fucked up people can be

Yes

You are the best example I can find!

guess the only reason why you're like this

is because you're a bastard child

you belong to none in the list

you don't legally exist at all

you're just an accident

unwanted piece of scum

that happen to drop by

I really got to thank you for letting me to know you

The things that you do

till today still amazes me

The amount of lies you can tell

the fucked up fake face you can show

the amazing many different facial mask you could put on

You should really nominate yourself in the Oscars!

You'll win the best BASTARD CHILD in the world!

Let me be the first to congratulate you!

The fact that you're so poor that you always have to take advantage of others

for your own benefit

I guess that's just in your blood

shows the true colour of your bastard self

I pity you really

you remind me of those rats scavenging for rubbish

I really should shit some for you

Ironic how you act so holy and shit

you're like the demon itself

changing faces and taking advantage

you might as well just dig your own grave

and go to Hell

Do the World a favour all right?

I wouldn't mind buying a coffin just for you

A cemetery lot isnt a problem as well!

Thank God I no longer have to see you soon!

Be gone you bastard son of a bitch!

This is the farewell performance for you when you go to Hell

Update sikit

Some recent photos

This was our Malaysian Night

After that went for road trip around Tassie

Most awesomeeemeessst oysters ever! Heavenly :D

Kat at the top of the world!

she sells seashells by the seashore! not.

lame

RAIN-BOW

Awesome sushi place as well :D best in tassie

Russell Falls

on our way to Mount Mawson. (:

meow meow

spot tim!

entao bo?

The holiday crew :D

Detail detail!

just hand up a construction detailing drawings

did like crazy. all of us were complaining on fb. it was too much work. 24Ao papers. wtf right

Jasper Leong This is pure madness. MADNESS.

Jasper Leong Jenabi Ling is right, where are my civil engineering friends?

Veronica Lee wanna CRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Veronica Lee stress!! retail therapy-ing!!!

Ivan Tan brain dead

Ivan Tan i guess i can confidently say that the worse decision in my life was to choose architecture.

Syh How Ng whole group 24 A0....are we going to present them on the floor?

New Su Jan i like how we're all hating the same thing at the same time. communal spirit. =D

Guoyi Wong 做来做去都做不完，我看到结果了！！结果是我做不完.........T.T

Jenabi Ling Why am I doing engineering's homework ? WHY!!!!!

Bentuckee Dieh Architecture is really mental suicidal..... *~*!!!!!!!!!!

Bentuckee Dieh OK. Everyone is practically crazy about detailing now... facebook is our refuge!

Fang Yow Lim DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!! DETAILING!!!

Najmuddin 'Ariff Asbullah No wonder so many architects are bald :D

Callan Rogers what rhythms with suicide.... BTD..

Nurul Sabrina killing me softly with this DETAIL....killing me sofly!!haih~

Architorture =.=

As it came rushing in

it suddenly just felt like old times
the same topic
the same discussion
the same argument

not the best part I would remember
probably the worst
the one that caused the downfall
the one that made it didnt work

I dont know how I got here
neither do I know what to do at this stage
I feel like swaying away
running away

Made me felt I am so different than before
perhaps I'm no longer hoping
I'm tired of going all those bullshit again
And it's coming around again

Meh
I was told this might just be my thing
and not just another shadow of the old
Somehow it is more like that
the images hit me each time it happens

I really don't know what to do now
I'm split in half
I hate this
sigh

I shouldn't be in this
I will not feel bad about this
I will not care about this
There you go.

Sorry for the lack of updates
wasn't busy
just kind of lost the motivation to blog anymore
haha

Just an update
just started my final semester for my degree
it's week 3 now
11 weeks to go

havent been reflecting much lately
is that a good thing am not sure

It got me thinking suddenly
gained a lot of experience
from this overseas experience
opened my eyes to a lot of things
People in the world
humans
weak
emotions
ah, I can go on with this list

I guess it comes to this point of life
where the world just comes up to you
and say
FUCK YOU
right in the face
that's how life is
suck it up

Knowing the sad fact about life
it can be really disappointing
sort of crash that whole wonderful world idea
Friendship
complicated as it is
Most of the time you just see people with mask
masking their face
hidden agenda
Lots of fuckface here
and I mean a lot
Sometimes I wonder is it the place
or just the fuckers

What else can I do
other than just don't give a fuck?
been doing that
and am still learning to continue doing it
I guess it's sometimes just right
to just not get close to anyone
to avoid being disappointed and ditched.

On another matter,
I can no longer speak my heart out
I rather keep it in
and just let it flow in whatever way
I guess it's this mindset
that's been going on in me
for a few years now
After all I've been through,
Guess it has always been
"Just follow the flow"
Where it takes me,
so be it.

It's not the right way I know
Guess it's been stuck for too long
Sometimes past are just past
but it hurts thinking
and it still does
I cant help it sometimes
for that I'm sorry
But one thing for sure
I am expecting too much once again
guess I put too much hope into this
should had never

What can I expect
I know what I would be going through
It's my fault
I got myself into this
no point whining and bitching over it
Oh wells

"Always know that when someone doesn't love u the way u want him/her to, it means he's/she's not loving you with all that he/she has."

There :)

Reflecting

now now, this is just me talking to myself :D
so dont read if you're gonna assume
self reflection
for future reference purpose.

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I realised I tend to go into deep thought
each time I'm alone
It's been a while since I've done that
quite some time actually
finally found some time to do it
and I re-discovered myself even more

Realising what I listen to
the choice of music
from time to time
Guess it's been in me for a long time now
and part of me is changing back slowly
guess what Jasper said was right
But then again
is it good or bad?
will never know
until I find out myself

I realised as well
how I have this two sides of me
when I'm with her
and when I'm with other people
Guess it just brings the other side of me
when I'm with someone so close
My sister was so right lol

Come to think of it
each time that feeling came
the feelings were just so similar
and it came to remind me
how awful it was before
a silhouette of how it was
guess because of that
it just affects me more

Realising how the my confidence level in such things
just suck to the ground
Once, I thought I was high end in such
Haha
Totally wrong
Guess it took its toll
I'm doubtful
It's hard and weird now
to be sharing things that were once
ONE
when that ONE was the only thing I ever trust

Playful my friend said
Indeed
So true
When that word came into play
it just hit me back
how it attracted yet destroyed me

Ah, the irony
Can't things not be this complicated?
How I wish I can choose what I wish to feel at times
Having two parts of me is hard
A battle torn between each time

Never know which will win anytime
One thing for sure
in time
Only one will emerge victorious.