And so it ends

It's the end of the road
The end of my long holidays in Penang
Heading back to Tassie tomorrow
Tonight is my last night :(

Well, I had my last nasi kandar today !
A big one !


Super sotong , mutton, chickie ! :D


had my last drink as well :)

My last run LOL
Addiction to alcohol damn :S
Sad how this got into place
Oh well, least I get to enjoy it :)


Me and Jovan =)
Hope he's all well now

Super stoned Jiunn Liang XD

Had my last sunset view :)

Last lok lok

Last view of Boo Tatt's TUU KAO's hair

Had my last run at the clubs

Ok, maybe I was stoned ;P
Wasted LOL

Me and Inn Lynn :)

Had my Seoul Garden date with Noel
We do this every year :)

Our all time favourite !
EGGS ! :D

Went up Penang Hill
after so many YEARS !

Met up my good friend Ai Ling after 2 years :)
Happy that you're doing fine !

Sent a friend off to Tassie :P
See ya soon Lok Joo ! ^^

Saw my last fireworks in Malaysia
It was beautiful :)
We were caught off guard when it started
Didn't know the reason why there were even fireworks !

Splendid finale though
didn't managed to capture it :(

And a last mention to my dear Grace =)
Thanks for calling during my last night ! ^^
I really appreciate it, really made my day !
It's ironic how things goes
Never thought I'll talk to you after so many years :P
For those who knew my past with her, you'll understand ;)

Just too bad I never got that 'night talk' with you like the night before you left :(
It was really fun and I did enjoyed it
Not many have the same thoughts as me
Surprisingly you have ! :P
Anyway all the best aye
And both of us can be future architects ! ^^

And no worries, key chain will always be with me heh :D

I'm so gonna miss home :(
Miss Penang
Miss Malaysia
I just hope I don't miss you.



p/s: AND THANK YOU JENE FOR EVERYTHING !! =)

I'm amazed

That I did not slept throughtout Valentine's Day
Stayed up during the whole 24 hours
Unexpected
But just not tired

And that I did the unexpected as well
Turned out to be nothing
Oh well, not important anymore
I guess it was just an excuse
or merely a way for me to let loose of myself

This is not me
I can't believe I did it for the sake of depression
It is stupid
Could had destroyed my life
Or perhaps will.....

First hand experience
Hope I wouldn't do it again
I feel dirty
It's like seeing blood on your hands after you kill somebody
I hope I don't go back

Many said I am just being idiot
I feel so as well
But what can I do
I can't control myself
I just want to forget
But at the same time I can't

To be honest I do not hate you
Perhaps I just can't bring myself to hate you
I just know I'll miss you
I guess this is just fate
I have to force myself to face it

Yes, I've changed
Changed to the worst
That I've never thought I'll become
Like the scumbag I've always looked down on
I'm no better than them now

Strangers in the future
Once the closest
Now the furthest
I've never regret meeting you
I just regret I can't keep those memories

I've wished you could fill those stars again
I guess I have to leave it empty now.

Valentine's Day

The day I will finally forget everything about you
When I will forget that lovely smile of yours
Those looks in your eyes
That smell of your hair
Your laughter
Your hug

I've never thought forgetting you would be so hard
Time, they said
Somehow it doesn't work
I wonder how it turned out like this
Sometimes I wish this isn't true

I used to laugh at those idiots
Who killed those they love
And poison themselves to death
Now I'm laughing at myself
For following the very step I used to condemn so much
It's amazing how this fucked up thing called love
Can change a person

Breaking the very promise that I've promised myself
Knowing that it will kill me
I still did not bother
Somehow the urge to wash you out is stronger
Than the very promise I kept for myself.

I drink
I smoke
I have thoughts seeing life has no purpose
I even had thoughts of killing you
Blackmailing
All the thoughts of a lunatic
I can't see myself being that shit bastard

You have changed my life like no other
It is this day
That my life will change
I am a different person now
I no longer feel like myself anymore

I do not blame you
I blame myself
For being weak
Stupid
Immature
Naive

You chose your path
I respect that
You no longer want me in your life
Not even as a friend
I will disappear from your life
That I can promise you

Today will be the day
To start a new chapter
You will be nothing
Not memories
But nothing
Somehow those memories now
are nothing but sad memories

I wish you well in life
And hope that you'll live life better without me
That very star in my heart will die
Until the day I finally find that light again

Only then will I put it on again

Happy Valentine's Day.















Friends
I know you guys are worried
About the drinking and smoking
This is not me
I know
I'm sorry
But this will the last
I can only hope
But not promise

Rihanna got punched ?!

Rihanna’s scheduled concert in Malaysia this Friday has been cancelled following reports that the singer was attacked by boyfriend Chris Brown in Los Angeles over the weekend.

Reps for Rihanna informed Malaysia’s Pineapple Concerts that her February 13 show would be postponed to an unspecified date “in light of recent events involving Rihanna,” Pineapple Concerts said in a statement to The Associated Press on Tuesday.

According to Los Angeles Police Department sources, the 20-year-old Barbados-born singer has visible bruises, scrapes on her face, and even bite marks on her body.

Rihanna had been slated to visit Indonesia and Malaysia on the Asian leg of her “Good Girl Gone Bad Tour.” Her Kuala Lumpur show created controversy late last year after organizers threaten to can the show over Rih-Rih’s signature skimpy outfits, which violate Malaysia’s strict rules on performers’ dress.

Source

lmao, so funny ! xD

Kesian all those fans in Malaysia :(

Horoscope~

read something really true and interesting from Jene !
It was so true !! every single part of it !!

A man with a foggy clouds over him. He is sensitive and easily hurt and always feels lonely.
I am sensitive right Jaspie ? :P
I do always feel lonely -_-
He does not trust anyone but himself. Sounding so negative, but he has an amazingly charisma. He is a compassionate man . He absorbs other people sentimental feeling and pain. He is a good psychiatrist and he could understand complex and confused feeling. He has a hidden power that he could use it to make things happen and do things well. He does not like people who never try to help themselves before asking other people for favors. He is the type of guy who mostly achieved his goal in life.Once he sets his mind for something, he will put all his energy and efforts in it , whether or not it is a small matter or a big project. One of the most success man in all the Zodiac. He is a very patient man and can waits for years to reach his goal. He hates thin feeling and weak determinations. He can not retreat or rest for long, for he thinks life has more questions and more answer to be searched. If he is in love, you will get plenty of love from him, sometimes may be too much than you have asked for.
Yes too much love that I hate myself for being so
He is serious about love and relationship and will not waste time with someone he does not love whether how pretty she is. He hardly makes mistake. He could tell if you have any bad thought, and will not hesitate to tell you so. If you do not like straight forward sincere man, then pack your bag now. If you are an over sensitive person, try not to ask for his comments. He will tell you the truth, even you might not be able to take it. Example , if you ask him if you are fat (and you are fat), he will say 'yes, as big as a balloon'.
I am straight forward, ask Jess :P
He makes such comments because he cares for you, so do something about your weight and do not get up set with him. If he says 'you look pretty today', you can be proud because he will not say such think just to please you if he does not really mean it. There will be both kind of people, those who like him and those who hate him. If you are in love this guy, be strong and belief in your decision, do not be vulnerable. He remembers all his anger and will wait for his pay back time. He is very serious about your promise, do not promise something you could not keep.
Promise is important
He loves his friends and will do anything for his close friends. He likes you to take care of him, but not in front of his friend. He is a complex man and you will never understand what he means if you do not really know him.
Complex yes, not many understands me
He is happy to know he is a complex figure.
Mighty proud of it
When he is thinking or when he needs his privacy, you should give him some space. He memorize everything well. You may say something that you already forgotten, but he will remember every words. He wants to be respected and admired and at the same time he does not like people to have power over him. When he falls in love, he really falls deep. A man in this Zodiac once in love, he will be sweeter than sugar. He does not like a plain and simple woman. A complex woman's mind is his venture. Always be interesting and able to talk to him about every things in any subjects.
Oh that's the woman for me :)
He does not like a woman who sits around waiting for his call.
Yes, independent one I want

Sometimes I do wonder how this horoscopes can be so true !? :S

Of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be

High School Reunion~

A little reunion
with high school friends =D
This time Jo and Jason finally came =)

Jo
Entau bo ?
D:

Jason and Ivan
tengok that perempuan Ivan =.=

Didnt know where to eat

some random chinese restaurant =.=

Jason acting cute =.=
Look like japanese no ? :D

Deciding where to go after dinner
Sam wanted club =)
" You fellas will join !"
*points at everyone*

Even during our group shot
he was still thinking of how to
persuade us to go LOL

In the end we went =)
MOIS !

Jason's smile so fake =.=

Met a few friends =)

Noel, Boo Tatt and Jiunn Liang tagged along =D
Boo Tatt intended to get high =)

Old classmate, he and his super lame jokes XD

Dah high dah Noel =)

Sam made a few flaming shots

It was awesome =)
I had four
and I was like wooooooooohooooooo XD

All joyful and happy XD

Yeah I was all red d XD

Me and my good buddy since std 5!
The one with the brains =)

Boo Tatt had a lovebite on the neck XD

Isn't Jason cute !? XD

Met a few more friends =)

Then it's time to move it !

Jo was super high that night XD

Oh yeah ? XD

Lol, was so into it !

Danced and grabbed ? LOL

Oh it was an awesome night =)
Seriously washed my head haha

The End ?

Should be my last clubbing experience
Perhaps anyone wants to join me for a last run ? :)


Drinking is still my antidote
To ease myself
Can I not forget ?

First Love ?

Was talking to a friend today
he was finally in love
after so many years =)

His first love to be exact
and that feeling to him is so not normal !
He felt weak but at the same time felt strong
like he can do anything for her

But his ego is too high
but he let loose a lot for that girl
haha and the best thing is he wants to get engaged with the girl
on the 12th of Dec 2012 !
Such a significant date ! REALLY !
I will do that as well
a pledge
if I ever find one
I will engage you on the 12th of Dec 2012 !!
HEAR ME MY GIRL ! :D
Wherever and whoever you are ! ^^
But no girl no engagement :(

Ahhhh, after talking to him
reminds me of the time I was in love with my first love
It was magical =)
Though I did not end up getting her
It was really a remarkable experience
I did so much
Gave me strength
I can owe my good results during PMR for her =)

I remember one of my friend told me
he was ... let's say a weird person
he's always with the one with the theories and facts
I find him an interesting fellow =)
He once told me
that I'm a lucky person
cause he never gets to fall in love
He wants to but he can't
He told me he also wished he has emotions
like worries...love..
I told him I rather be like him
but he said being a lifeless person like him
sometimes made him felt life isn't worth it

Been thinking
Should I do it ?
I don't know really
I know I should
But I can't bear to let go
I know once I do, I'll forget
I don't want to forget
I know how it's like to forget
You'll try to remember so hard but you just can't remember..

But you're giving me an answer that I should just do it
Should I ?
All I'm asking is a final clarification from you
It seems so hard
I guess this is a slap to me
Perhaps another 2 years of repeating history ?

I don't know what I should do
But what I know is
I must do this before I go back
If not, I'm sure what the answer will be

The choice is yours
If it's not worth it, so be it
Though I'm really reluctant to let go those memories
But you want it that way, perhaps I should just do it

I just don't want to forget.....
Can I ?
Please ?



Really counting days now
I don't want to go back :(